Which Came First, My Anxiety or Fibromyalgia?

Which Came First, My Anxiety or Fibromyalgia?
I’ve been thinking about the chicken-and-egg dilemma and wondering which came first. Am I an anxious person because I have fibromyalgia? Or do I have fibromyalgia because I’m an anxious person? I do not remember a time in my life when I didn’t suffer from anxiety. In childhood, I feared the dark and being alone. In my teens, I agonized over acceptance by others. As a young mother with a colicky baby, I experienced near panic on a daily basis. In adulthood, a responsible job with frequent deadlines eventually resulted in the end of my working life. And now, in retirement, I worry about deteriorating health and outliving my financial resources. From the earliest of these experiences, the result was physical illness. I often wonder whether everyone has the same anxious thoughts that I do. Could it be that they can ignore them? Could it be that my mind amplifies unpleasant issues to the point where they cause physical symptoms? Perhaps central sensitization extends to feelings just as it does to all of my other senses. Over the years, several cognitive therapists have identified negative thinking as my issue and have attempted to correct it. I’ve improved to the point of being able to recognize it. But, try as I might, I’ve yet to make significant changes to it. I’ve concluded that it’s just me — the result of my genetics and my life experiences. Aware that more free time equals more time to worry, my goal in life is to keep busy. That’s also my biggest challenge. I excel at making plans to do this
Subscribe or to access all post and page content.

Leave a Comment

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *