Is My Childhood Trauma Linked to Fibromyalgia?

Is My Childhood Trauma Linked to Fibromyalgia?
I have often wondered whether the abuse I suffered as a child played a part in my fibromyalgia’s development. What I’ve read recently makes me think that’s entirely possible. My mother and I are now more accepting of one another, and of our respective perceived flaws. We have forged a new relationship. But I know we’ll never have the closeness she has with her other children. And I’m the only one of seven with a chronic illness today. Growing up, there was never a time that I felt loved and accepted by my mom. She was physically abusive at times, with very little provocation, in my opinion. She was always verbally and emotionally abusive, addressing me as “she," "it," or "thing,” or worse. She never called me by name unless my dad or another adult was around. I will never understand what I had done to cause her to treat me this way. I’m the second oldest of seven children, the oldest girl. My mom was different toward each of my brothers and sisters, more the mother you would expect. I found out much later that her mother had behaved much the same way toward one of her daughters. My mom is the oldest of eight, and I believe her experiences as a child affected her as an adult. I also think sometimes it can be a generational thing. My mom was 20 when I was born. Suffice it to say that I had a stressful, unhappy childhood. My friends and books became my anchor, my escape, and my window to joy. My dad was, too. My dad was always the parent I talked to when I was going through a hard time and needed a listening ear. He was there for me when I went through a divorce at 26 and had a child out of wedlock at 31. When he got older, we used to Skype together. I miss those times. When my dad died in 2011, my symptoms got so much worse. Ac
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  1. Shirley says:

    Robin, although my mother was never as abusive as yours, I, too, grew up feeling unloved and alone. My mother did not want children and had no interest in us, other than providing our basic necessities. We have a close relationship now, but it is still a work in process. I was also sexual abused by a family friend, and new research shows a link between FM and sexual abuse in childhood.

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